I cannot fathom my heart Lord. It is an ocean I am unable to conquer. I rebel underneath its waves. I fight like a warrior against its currents. I curse its temperature and fall exhausted on the shore gasping for breathe. I plot revenge with a smile. Am I proud or just a fool? How long will I try and vanquish this mystery alone?
I was not made for this solitude. My heart suffocates in isolation. My wisdom has been imprudent and my hope in vain. I lift my eyes to You Father, my only hope for communion. You are the answer to the thousand questions that rage inside of me. If only I am brave enough to surrender.
God bless you,
Fr. Jeremiah Myriam Shryock, CFR
St. Felix Friary, Yonkers, New York